Britney Spears is asking a Los Angeles Superior Court judge to end her 13-year conservatorship , saying she is being exploited, bullied and feeling „left …
Britney Spears is asking a Los Angeles Superior Court judge to end her 13-year conservatorship, saying she is being exploited, bullied and feeling „left out and alone.“ Below is a transcript from a leaked audio recording of part of Spears‘ court statement Wednesday posted on YouTube and verified by NPR. Britney Spears: I will be honest with you, I haven’t been back to court in a long time because I don’t think I was heard on any level when I came to court the last time. I brought four sheets of paper in my hands and wrote in length what I had been through the last four months before I came there. The people who did that to me should not be able to walk away so easily. I’ll recap: I was on tour in 2018 I was forced to do. My management said if I don’t do this tour I will have to find an attorney. Los Angeles Superior Court Judge Brenda Penny: Ms. Spears, Ms. Spears. I hate to interrupt you, but my court reporter is taking down what you’re saying. Spears: OK. Penny: And so you have to speak a little more slowly. Spears: Oh, of course. Yes. OK. I apologize. Great. Penny: So we hear and make a record of everything you’re saying. Spears: The people who did this to me should not get away and be able to walk away so easily. Recap: I was on tour in 2018. I was forced to do. My management said if I don’t do this tour, I will have to find an attorney and by contract my own management could sue me if I didn’t follow through with the tour. He handed me a sheet of paper as I got off the stage in Vegas and said I had to sign it. It was very threatening and scary and with the conservatorship, I couldn’t even get my own attorney. So out of fear, I went ahead and I did the tour. When I came off that tour, a new show in Las Vegas was supposed to take place. I started rehearsing early, but it was hard cause I’d been doing Vegas for four years and I needed a break in between. But no, I was told this is the timeline and this is how it’s gonna go. I rehearsed four to four days a week, half of the time in the studio and a half of the other time in a Westlake studio. I was basically directing most of the show with my whereabouts, where I preferred to rehearse and actually did most of the choreography, meaning I taught my dancers my new choreography myself. I take everything I do very seriously. There’s tons of video with me at rehearsals. I wasn’t good. I was great. I led a room of sixteen new dancers in rehearsals. It’s funny to hear my manager’s side of the story. They all said I wasn’t participating in rehearsals and I never agreed to take my medication, which my medication is only taken in the mornings, never at rehearsal. They don’t even see me. So why are they even claiming that? When I said no to one dance move into rehearsals, it was as if I planted a huge bomb somewhere and I said, no, I don’t want to do it this way. After that, my management, my dancers and my assistant of the new people that were supposed to do the new show all went into a room, shut the door and didn’t come out for at least forty five minutes. Ma’am, I’m not here to be anyone’s slave. I can say no to a dance move. I was told by my — at the time — therapist, Dr. Benson, who died, that my manager called him and then that moment and told him I wasn’t cooperating or following the guidelines in rehearsals. And he also said I wasn’t taking my medication, which is so dumb because I’ve had the same lady every morning for the past eight years give me my same medication and I’m nowhere near these stupid people. It made no sense at all. There was a week period where they — they were nice to me and they said, „I don’t want to do —“ And I told them, „I don’t want to do the —“ They wait, no — They were nice to me. They said, „if I don’t want to do the new Vegas show, I don’t have to cause I was getting really nervous.“ I said „I can wait.“ It was like, they told me I could wait. It was like lifting literally two hundred pounds off of me when they said I don’t have to do the show anymore cause it was — I was really, really hard on myself and it was too much. I couldn’t take it anymore. So I remember telling my assistant, „But you know what, I feel weird if I say no. I feel like they’re going to come back and be mean to me or punish me or something.“ Three days later, after I said no to Vegas, my therapist sat me down in a room and said he had a million phone calls about how I was not cooperating in rehearsals and I haven’t been taking my medication. All of this was a false. He — he immediately the next day put me on lithium out of nowhere — He took me off my normal meds I’d been on for five years. And lithium is a very, very strong and completely different medication compared to what I was used to. You can go mentally impaired if you take too much, if you stay on it longer than five months. But he put me on that and I felt drunk. I really couldn’t even take up for myself. I couldn’t even have a conversation with my mom or dad really about anything. I told them I was scared and my doctor had me on — six different nurses with this new medication come to my home, stay with me to monitor me on this new medication, which I never wanted to be on to begin with. There were six different nurse — nurses in my homes and they wouldn’t let me get in my car to go anywhere for — for a month. Not only did my family not do a god damn thing, my dad was all for it. Anything that happened to me had to be approved by my dad. And my dad only — he acted like he didn’t know that I was told I had to be tested over the Christmas holidays before they sent me away when my kids went home to Louisiana. He was the one who approved all of it. My whole family did nothing. Over the two week holiday, a lady came into my home for four hours a day, sat me down and did a psych test on me. It took forever, but I was — I was told I had to then — after that I got off — Wait. I was told — I had to then after I got a phone call from my dad saying after I did the psych test with this lady, basically saying I had failed the test or whatever- whatever. „I’m sorry, Britney, you have to listen to your doctors. They are planning to send you to a small home in Beverly Hills to do a small rehab program that we’re going to make up for you. You’re gonna pay sixty thousand dollars a month for this.“ I cried on the phone for an hour and he loved every minute of it. The control he had over someone as powerful as me as he loved the control to hurt his own daughter, one hundred thousand percent. He loved it. I packed my bags and went to that place. I worked seven days a week, no days off — which in California, the only similar thing to this is called sex trafficking, making anyone work — work against their will. Taking all their possessions away — credit card, cash, phone, passport card — and placing them in a home where they- they work with the people who live with them. They offer — They all lived in the house with me, the nurses, the 24/7 security. There — There was one chef that came there and cooked for me daily during the weekdays. They watched me change every day, naked. Morning, noon and night. My body — I had no privacy door for my — for my room. I gave eight gallons of blood a week. If I didn’t do any of my meetings and work from eight to six at night — which is ten hours a day, seven days a week, no days off — I wouldn’t be able to see my kids or my boyfriend. I never had a say in my schedule. They always told me I had to do this. And ma’am, I will tell you, sitting in a chair ten hours a day, seven days a week, it ain’t fun. And especially when you can’t walk out the front door. And that’s why I’m telling you this again two years later, after I’ve lied and told the whole world I’m OK and I’m happy. It’s a lie. I thought I just — maybe I said that enough, maybe I might become happy because I’ve been in denial. I’ve been in shock. I am traumatized, you know, fake it till you make it. But now I’m telling you the truth, OK? I’m not happy. I can’t sleep. I’m so angry. It’s insane and I’m depressed. I cry every day. And the reason I’m telling you this is because I don’t think how the state of California can have all this written in the court documents from the time I showed up and do absolutely nothing.
